Positive thinking

So I was just writing in my other private blog (which is just a day to day here's what I did kind of thing so that I can remember, I have a terrible time remembering), and I wrote that I hated myself. And then I decided that that pattern of thinking is self-defeating. It hasn't helped me so far. And I need to think positive to have positive things happen. And I need some positive things to start happening in my life. I need to stop making excuses and start doing things to get the universe rolling in my direction.